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amour_douxx

How many times can a person say something, never do it, and still expect people to believe them? I am horrible at responding to people, I rarely check anyones journal, when I do look I most of the time don't comment, and I have been slow to update mine. I want to say again that I really do mean too, its just I don't have time. Okay, so if I watch a little less shows then yes, I'd have time. But right now I'm really busy doing the following:

-Work. While I love my job, the family is super amazing, I have been working longer hours (not that I really mind) but iit means being at work, and when I'm finished I'm tired. Literally all I do all day is walk around. I put Leni in her stroller and from 9-11 we are walking around the city here. Then in the afternoon Jane and I take all the kids out to the park, where we have to play with them....needless to say I am not 3 so my energy level isn't what it use to be!

-School. I have a love/hate relationship with school. I love Criminology, but HATE the amount of work that has gone into this semester alone. Normally I'm the type of person who won't study, but this semester I thought I'd really crack down and read the material and things...while it hadn't really helped I feel like I'm gaining more insight into my field. Although I haven't narrowed down what I want to do in the field.

-Real Life. I don't know what I want to do. I leave Germany in July. I have a job in Maryland (between Baltimore and D.C) but I don't want to be a nanny. I can't get a real job, because it will be my last year at school therefore I must focus and I couldn't get a job in my field without a B.A., so my choices are limited. I have considered going to South America, maybe doing so work in Bolivia or Hondouras volunteering, but the more I think about it the more I think that maybe S.A isn't as safe as I think and therefor maybe I don't want to go. At the same time I really would like to live in Europe, more so Italy. But then I can't even begin to imagine who would hire me with my poor language skills because I would not be going back as an au pair! So I have no idea what I want to do nor where I want to do it.

-Travel. I just came back today from a weekend in Prague. My weekends are now spent traveling, mainly around Germany, but pretty soon further out. I feel as though I haven't taken in much of Europe even though I have been here a year. What's really sad is I haven't been to many towns in Germany, maybe three, and I've been here 6 months. So I am spending the majoriy of my time traveling around, taking both time and energy.

-TV. With the writers strike it has introduced me to so many new shows: NCIS, Prison Break, Convicted, CSI-NY...and I am the type of person who gets hooked and has to watch them all back to back, therefor killing all my free time.

So there are the reason why I officially am horrible. I want to be a better friend I do. But it probably isn't going to happen.I have no more free time to write fics, I am no longer vidding, and I doubt I ever will catch up writing to people. I really like to correspond by pen and paper, so I will respond to my friends that way before email and such. There are so of you that I really enjoy talking to and miss talking with you an insane amount...there are others that I haven't gotten to know and that sucks. I feel if your going to have to "listen" to me rattle on we should at least has some form of a friendship. Needless to say it would be easy for me to say that today I am going to start responding and such in a timely fashion...but that is also like saying I will give up flavored milk and loose ten pounds this month; doesn't look like it will happen. Feel free to cut me if you think I'm a lost cause, badger me that I need to grow up and find time to chat, or whatever else you might want. While I'd love to spend hours chatting it isn't going to happen!

This isn't some morbid I'm leaving thing, more like an explanation, if you will. I really do like everyone on my flist!